Another day of contemplation

It's 1 am , yet I am still wide awake . Nothing really runs through my mind. Yet , I am tired of school. It is draining the life out of me.

Is it time to hand in a transfer request?
Is it time to call it quits?
Where should I go if I quit the teaching field?
Should I go back and study?
What should I do in the mean time?

All these questions , I got no answer . Worse thing, I am not alone. If I am alone, I am worry free. I got responsibilities , to my parents , to planning a future with Dianjuan.

My decisions don't only affect myself , but to those close to me. I value their feedback, yet I need to take their feedback to heart and make the best choice for myself. If I do not take care of myself, I will not be able to care for them.

Today called Jixiang to see if there is any vacancies in Inova. See if I can get myself into a JC. A change of environment will be good for me. To have no history , to start afresh. Yet currently , let me do my best. To manage . Lord Please help me through this time. I think you for times like these so that I can come back to you .

If Times are good, I usually drift away , not giving you due credit. Help me to remain faithful through good times and bad. Because you are faithful , you are the same yesterday , today and forever and forever. Help me love you , honour you , so that I can fulfill my responsibilities.